I'M GETTING MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!



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E D I T

Ok folks, so here's clarification. `dxd and I are not getting married - He hasnt proposed to me and the ring he got me on my birthday? ITS JUST A RING I REALLY WANTED!

Anyway, so this whole marriage escapade continues on with a random guy from Facebook asking me to marry him. I think he's someone who knows someone I know...?



I accepted, thinking it'd be hilarious to piss `dxd off ... It didn't work, he thought it was funny

Assface.

Anyway, so now I'm "marrying" some random bloke, Dom thinks it's funny and I'm DEMANDING he murder my new "fiancé" just to save me breaking his heart

OH the things we do when we're bored

Off to have a mountain of strawberries and cream now

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`dxd

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... Just to let you know that I'm not dead!

I had an awesome birthday - Nice and relaxed, and then both `dxd and I headed up to Nottingham for a few days - Just to get away from it all!

I've just had a few minutes to catch up with my messages and what-not, but I don't have the time to reply just yet. We should have actually be coming home today, but we've decided to stay up a couple more days - So I'll be back home on Friday

I'll also have lots of deviations too

OH, and awesome news - Just in case you don't already know... `dxd got offered a new job! He'll be starting work at London Luton Airport [no, not working with me He'll actually be IN the airport, I'm still half a mile away ] on Monday morning - I'M SO HAPPY!!!

Things are finally beginning to look up for us, and just in time for the summer too

Anyhoo, will catch up with most of you on dAmn at some point on Friday or Saturday!

BAI!


Love,
Bini xx

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`dxd

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OMGOMGOMGOMOGMOGMOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOGMOGOGMOGMOGMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOGMOGMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOGMOGMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOGMOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.

OMG.

`dxd got me a ring for my birthday present!!!!



I FUCKING LOVE YOU! [lol at you watching me type this <333]

You're simply amazing

Bini xx

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`dxd

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Never have I ever come across a horoscope that's been so specific to my circumstances before.

"Bini,
Sex, death and other ultimate mysteries arouse your curiosity. Do not let your family stifle your ambitions any longer. It is time to head out on your own and face the challenges. Strive for success, but do not fear failure."

I've been doing this meditation thing that `dxd suggested lately, and it's been helping me to just chillax and not get so wound up by everyday things - My job in particular!

And when you meditate, apparently your mind wonders off and you end up thinking about some crazy things... To me, it's almost dream-like but I'm awake?

It's hard to explain. I've only done it a few times, and the first time I tried to meditate it just felt like I was doing it for a few minutes... But apparently I was "gone" for 20

Yesterday was the first time I've actually had a chance to sit down and meditate properly, and I must have been at it for over 2 hours, but again it felt like just 30 minutes. I cant even remember half of the crap that was going through my mind but I felt more awake than I have in the longest time. Like really energised and alert.

It's weird, so very fucking weird, but its helping me.

I finally got a letter through from the doctors about my therapy the other day, and they're going to phone me at some point to assess if I still need their help. I'm going to push on with the meditation and if they accept me for therapy, then I'm going to use both methods to hopefully get me back on track.

The horoscope was right

It's time that I stop letting my past problems fuck me off and stop me from doing things I want to do.

I'm going to be 22 in a matter of days. I've got a lovely apartment and I'm living with my amazing boyfriend, I've got a secure job [as much as I complain, most of what I have now is down to this job] and other than what's going on in my head - or whatever physical problem that's been caused as a result of my "depression" - There's nothing else wrong with me.

Everything else is perfect, and I just need to see past all the chaos and drama or the last year and begin to move along with my life the way it SHOULD BE. The way *I* want it to be - Not something that I feel has been dictated to me because of what's happened before.

So yes, as you can see... The meditation is already helping me to think positive

I shall be even more awesome soon

Love,
Bini xx

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`dxd

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I'll be 22 in a week... May 10th!

I FEEL OLD.

So whatcha gettin me?

Love,
Bini xx

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`dxd

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